love at first sight

this past tuesday evening i arrived at my new home: floyd, iowa.

the last hour of my drive i found myself overcome by a deep sense of awe and wonder at the beauty surrounding me. the sunset was breathtaking, the clouds putting a 3D spin on the sky's every hue. brilliance. the hills, the farmland amazed me. my eyes kept filling with tears. after 5 years in indiana you'd think i'd be used to it- but this was beautiful beyond beautiful to me!

i knew i was almost home!

when i saw the "welcome to floyd" sign my heart pounded in my chest and i got butterflies in my stomach. i was overjoyed, my heart was melting; it was pure love! love at first sight. i've never experienced this before- it was simply glorious!

such a thrilling first meeting!
but i can say that i do not know that it would have been so powerful if i had not first yielded myself to Lord for this season.

i've been super emotional since about mid-june. i decided when all the tears began to let myself take this emotional journey- to feel, to hurt, to be overjoyed, to grieve, to remember- whatever i needed to make a healthy transition. still, in all that emotion i sensed a deeper, Spirit to spirit change taking place. a mysterious, holy preparation i could not even comprehend. over the past several months my prayer language changed, and the Spirit is manifesting in some new ways i haven't experienced before. it was only in my last few days in lafayette that i had a quickening, a sudden and clear understanding of what these emotions and spirit changes were for.

i sensed all at once on monday that i had to say goodbye to indiana as "home" for good. more than a goodbye, i sensed a "do not" from the Lord.
"do not call lafayette home anymore. My heart will be your home, and wherever i lead you, you may call home for the season in which i call you there."
i lived out 5 beautiful, tumultuous, blessed years in indiana. God has done everything He intended to do in my heart there, and now i must go with all my heart to where He is leading. i must choose to trust that where He leads, He will sustain. no man-made clauses, no loopholes into getting my way or my plan in the process.

giving up, letting go
never was i in control
falling into love again
a love that demands my everything
be given

i penned those words over 2 years ago, but they are as real and fresh to my heart today as the day i sat down in tears, grabbed my guitar, and sang them for the first time.

He loves it when we yield. on monday i chose to yield the final things i held onto so He could release me into the new. i left lafayette well. on good terms with all, with all lose ends tied up.

i was ready.
fully yielded.
fully obedient.

maybe that's why it was so easy to fall in love with floyd at first sight.

maybe it was so easy to say "hello" because i took the time to say "goodbye".


*megan

Heat wave!

Right now I'm in Louisville, KY fund raising for MC at the Hullabalou music festival.


So far things are going well! I enjoy being outside, though the 100 plus degree heat index days are slightly beyond my ideal temperature;). The work is not bad at all! Though it's menial work I'm determined to keep my shoulders back, chin up, with a smile on my face!
Why?
I know Whose I am.


We are catering for the VIPs behind the mainstage, serving tech crews and some band members who are here with Train, Bon Jovi, Kenny Chesney, Dave Matthews, Dierks Bentley and more.


Though it is exciting to meet or at least see from close up some of these famous folks, I know that they're just humans. These stars will one day lose their luster. Popularity, beauty, riches, and fame will eventually fade. No one will take anything from this life to eternity, except souls won for the Kingdom.


So I endeavor today to take any opportunity afforded me to win a soul.


*megan
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Wow!

One month from today I will be in Floyd, Iowa, venturing into a new season of my journey with the Lord. It is unreal!


I haven't been in full time ministry in years! So much has changed inside of me since the last season of ministry. So much that I hardly know what kind of leader I'll be! I know I'm not perfected in the areas of aggravation, temper, entitlement and other unlovely characteristics that defined me my second year of Master's Commission in Lafayette. But such inner changes have been brought about over the past 2 years... I'm not even the same girl!


My greatest desire for myself this year is to be characterized by love- the first fruit of the Spirit. Fruit needs to be cultivated, and cultivation equals work! Lord, cultivate love in me! I desire such love for the students that even in the most stressful moments I would respond in pure love. Respond, not react. I desire that my love for them would be sacrificial. That I would learn to lay down my life for those whom God has entrusted to my care. That I would cooperate with God's loving will for their lives and seek His leadership in how to love and lead them well.


Yes Lord. Teach me to love and lead well.


*megan
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I'm 26 today!

This past year was probably my best ever. Lots of heartache tempered with sweet victories. So thankful for the ugly days that taught me of grace that allows me to endure well. I'm also quite thankful for lovely days that taught me more of His grace that allows me to enjoy this life!

I'm excited for a new year.

Maybe I'll write more later. But it's just after midnight right now and I need my rest so I can fully enjoy the BEACH later on today. Goodnight/good morning, and Happy Birthday to me. Thanks God for giving me breath today.

*megan
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All I Want

I was organizing some of my old chord sheets today (all part of the moving process!) and came across this song by Jeff Deyo (chorus and bridge):

All I want is just to see You, Jesus
And I long just to hear Your voice
I need just to be near You
'Cause Your presence is all I want

One day we'll look on Your face
We'll see You in all of Your glory
And we won't need the sun
And we won't need the moon
All we will need is You!

Wow! Just reading the lyrics I got goose bumps just as I did years ago when I first heard this song. If the lyrics alone don't grip you, you've gotta hear the passion in the music and vocals. Wow (again).

I love when a song compels me to look away from my situation and toward the Lord.

Sigh:)

*megan
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